LUMINA
where the WIse woman initiates you and you do not return the same
6 Days / 5 Nights/OCt 14-19, 2026
Calais, vermonT / holden house
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There comes a time in every woman's life
when no matter how much inner work she has done,
the masks that have kept them safe are trapping their perspective and potential,
When the status-quo performance feels existential.
When the Good Girl’s gold stars stop meaning what they did before.
When even the parts of you that have always been “the strong one” start whispering:
“I can’t hold it like this anymore.”
“There has to be more than this.”
And somewhere — beneath the polished self-awareness,
beneath the strategy, the systems, and the right answers,
beneath the unspoken and stuffed away grief you’ve been managing for years —
something both younger and older and wiser stirs.
Something innocent and ancient.
She’s not trying to fix you.
She doesn’t need a five-step plan.
She’s not here to be impressive, digestible, or even understood.
She actually could care less, because she understands things your conscious mind may not yet understand.
She is the Wise Woman. And she lives in you and through you.
The part of you who speaks from ancestral memory.
Who recalls a time when the elements and the Earth were her first relationship with the divine.
The one who doesn’t flinch in the velvet dark.
The one who has been every version of you,
and every version yet to be
The one who has held both love and loss, joy and grief in the same breath and understands the sacredness of life and death,
the one who remembers the before, the after,
the everything all at once
In every form it takes.
The one who has been softened and seasoned by life
and leads out of the wisdom of her heart knowing.
She’s not waiting for permission.
And this retreat is her invitation to descend into the caves of yourself, to find the light and wisdom that has been waiting there all along.
A Seasonal Portal opens
A descent between Equinox and samhain
This is the season when the veil thins.
When truth begins to surface through the cracks.
When the Earth exhales.
When the light wanes and the dark becomes the teacher.
When life begins her descent… and beckons you to follow.
This is Persephone’s time.
But not the version you were taught — not the one stolen or subdued.
In the Starhawk lineage, Persephone descends by choice.
She goes to meet what was buried.
To retrieve the lost parts.
To claim her place as Queen not by domination — but by devotion.
This is also Inanna’s descent.
The Sumerian goddess who passed through seven gates —
Stripped of her power, her robes, her identity —
Until she stood naked in the underworld.
Not defeated, but revealed.
She died there.
And was resurrected.
Not as the same woman… but as a sovereign one.
One who could no longer be exiled from herself.
These are not just myths.
They are the architecture of every woman’s becoming.
You have lived this already — and you will live it again.
Because every true creative cycle is a death and rebirth.
Every new self requires a descent.
The void.
The dark.
The womb.
The tomb.
The cave.
The bleed.
The holy silence before the song.
This is the sacred turning of the wheel.
It is not linear. It is not performative.
It is ancient. Feminine. Unapologetically powerful.
And while the world worships the bloom —
it is in the dark that the roots grow deep.
It is in the underworld that the new self is formed.
It is in the places the light doesn’t reach that the stars are born.
This retreat is a rite of passage — not into the woman you’ve been trying to become —
but into the woman who’s already waiting for you in the dark.
Cloaked in intuition.
Steeped in power.
Speaking a language older than fear.
You are not coming here to “reset.”
You are coming to remember.
To descend.
To choose.
To rise.
Over and over again — as the myth, as the moon, as the woman who knows.
Holden House:
The Hive & Land that gives with love
Holden House is not a venue.
This 1890's farmstead is a nest and living altar.
Nestled in between the hills and rivers of Calais, Vermont—
land long honored and stewarded by Indigenous peoples before colonization
known for for its healing waters and natural portals—
this is a place where the earth speaks.
The mountains here feel ancient,
Fog clings to their edges like ceremony.
The rivers hum,
as if whispering the stories of everyone who has guarded the land,
When you arrive, something in you will recognize it.
You will feel the air shift,
your chest open,
your body soften.
Women often cry at the threshold—
driving to the farmstead for the first time,
not from sadness,
but from remembering.
This land holds grief without judgment,
truth without fear,
and transformation without hesitation.
In the morning, the mists roll over the hills
like a blessing.
Bonfires crackle under the setting sun.
The land becomes your teacher.
Your mirror.
Your medicine.
She unflinchingly holds the wailing and the tears.
She partners with us in ritual,
in shedding,
in rebirth.
You will not leave this place
as the same woman who arrived.
LUMINA is Different.
Lumina is a baptism into your archetypal underworld and your magic — a rite of passage held inside the field of the Wise Woman herself.
This is where your masked self is released to the soil with love.
Where your Good Girl and disempowered maiden is liberated into her magic and sovereignty.
Where your light and magic begins to flood back into your body and awareness.
Where the parts of you you’ve spent your whole life suppressing become your power.
Where eros becomes clarity.
Where grief becomes belonging.
Where rage becomes direction.
Where your voice becomes instrument instead of defense.
This is where women remember their original nature
before the conditioning,
before the silencing,
before the shrinking,
before the obedience.
You don’t leave this retreat —
you burst out of your old skin and into the rhythm of your bones.
It’s a remembering. It’s church. It’s re-parenting. It’s becoming.
And it’s fucking fun. Beth’s temple spaces are unlike anything I’ve ever experienced, and every woman deserves to know this kind of magic.
~Lauren
PERFORMER. PHOTOGRAPHER. MOTHER. EMBODIMENT TEACHER.
How women describe
Retreat experiences with Beth
I asked the women from the last round a simple question:
“If you describe retreat experiences with me in a few words… what would you say?”
Here is what they shared:
Expanding. Illuminating. Nourishing. Sacred.
Connection. Sisterhood. Freeing. A return to self. Inspiring. Awakening.
Vulnerable. Intense. Honest. Rooted. Authentic. Expansive.
A Homecoming.
Magical. Transformative. Deep. Alchemical.
Wild. Illuminating.
Rupturing—and rapturing.
Present. Spiritual. A remembering. Empowering. Truth-revealing.
Love-filled. Alive. Boundary-pushing. Enlightening.
Nourishing. Life-giving.
Witchy. Esoteric. Sensual. Nourishing, Activating (in the best ways).
These are the words women reach for when they try to describe something that ultimately defies language:
a wild, sacred, alchemical return to themselves.
YOU feel the call
to go deeper
The Descent, The Unmasking, The Rebirth, The Rise
This retreat is a ceremony.
A living field of myth you step inside of.
A living rite of passage.
Every moment is intentional.
Every arc, every breath, every ritual designed to unravel the false and awaken the true.
You will not merely “attend.”
You will journey.
DESCENT |
Meeting the Masks
We begin with the Unmasking of your Good Girl.
In whatever form her masks are still clinging in your behavior, body and psyche.
Through ritual, breath, body, truth, and sacred witnessing —
we start telling the truth beneath the stories.
And you begin to feel who you are underneath the roles.
No matter where you are in your journey,
To get closer to what you most desire,
You will always be asked to shed another layer in order to embrace more of what life is wanting to offer you.
The work is cyclical and never ends,
because there is always more available to you.
THE CAVE |
The Illuminating Dark
You meet yourself here.
Not as an idea.
But as sensation.
As memory.
As truth you can no longer un-know.
Shadow work.
Somatic unwinding.
Grief as devotion.
Ritual with the land.
Unhooking from vows that aren’t yours.
This is where your wise woman begins to arrive.
Not the one who performs resilience.
But the one who feels everything — and stays.
This is where your center returns.
THE RISING |
And from the underworld — you rise, different.
Not as a version of your former self.
Not as a “healed” woman.
Not as a polished one.
But truer,
Initiated into a deeper humility and
understanding.
As the Woman Who Knows.
The Seer.
The Oracle.
The Magical Child & Grandmother
The Inner-Elder
The Ancient Mother Within.
The Midwife of Truth.
The one who trusts the dark as womb.
Who leads from intuition and wisdom.
Who lets herself be seen in both brilliance and mess.
Who holds the world in her heart without abandoning herself.
Who can hold complexity, contradiction, and clarity without collapse.
Who is connected to the infinite.
The woman who no longer lives from performance.
But from presence.
This is what you’ll remember:
The radiance of simplicity.
Being filled with wonder and reverence.
The bliss and ecstasy of surrender.
A remembering of a felt sense of magic that permeates your awareness and that you will integrate back into your life.
Gratitude that brings you to your knees.
A direct connection and channel to truth.
A deep, embodied trust in the mystery.
An experience of inner illumination and wholeness.
An connection to your original blueprint — before you were ever taught to hide it.
What I experienced at this retreat was truly one of the most transformative moments of my life. I still can’t fully explain it — I only know, viscerally, that I am different now. Not just in how I feel, but in how I think, how I take responsibility for my life-force energy, and how empowered I am to direct it with intention.
The ritual was the most powerful I’ve ever done. The Wise Woman archetype moved through me in a way that felt profound, catalytic, and irrevocably changing. I can still feel her.
~Tamara
Pleasure Coach. Embodiment teacher.
“There is nothing quite like being held by the feminine in this way. This was magical, transformative, deep, and alchemical. I arrived fragmented and left feeling woven back together. The experience brought me home to myself, to my body, and to the medicine I carry. It was truly life-changing.
~Katy
YOGI • TEACHER. ACTOR. SINGER.
Who this is FOR
✔️ You are not afraid to be catalyzed, ignited, and to swim in the deep waters of energy and emotion.
✔️ You have done inner work, emotional healing, and are ready for an even deeper embodiment.
✔️ You are craving a truth beyond strategy, spirituality, perfection, or even words.
✔️ You want to birth or initiate a new chapter of your life with clarity and full-bodied presence.
✔️ You are devoted to living from the union of your soul and body, not from your conditioning.
✔️ You are intrigued and desire to dance, move, and enter ritual with the Sacred Feminine — to allow her to awaken you.
✔️ You feel new layers waking inside you and are ready to meet them fully.
Who this is NOT FOR
✘ You are desiring a relaxing vacation with friends rather than an initiation through sisterhood.
✘ Your body doesn’t yet feel safe or comfortable experiencing big emotions or being witnessed in groups.
This work requires presence, grounding, and self-trust.
✘ You are new to embodiment or deep inner work.
This retreat is advanced-level terrain for women who have already cultivated inner capacity.
✘ You struggle to track yourself, ask for what you need, or stay rooted in group environments.
Your voice and self-responsibility are essential to the integrity of the container.
✘ You’re not ready to honor the ceremonial field — to show up fully and participate in the sessions that allow the medicine to land.
✘ You desire fun and entertainment over deep and catalytic transformation.
This is not performance, it is portal.
✘ You avoid responsibility for your inner world.
This work requires sovereignty, not projection.
✘ You prefer comfort over truth.
The Wise Woman will require your deepest heart and honesty, not your performance.
Meet your guide
Hi, love. I'm Beth Clayton.
Somatic coach. Archetypal guide.
Initiator. Lantern-holder.
Wild Woman devotee.
For over fifteen years, I have guided women through the dark woods of the initiations and transitions in their lives, through the the caves of their original nature, and essential Self.
This isn’t theory. I’ve navigated and released, allowed and grieved, and found deep self-devotion through these rites myself.
Every element of this retreat has been forged in the fire of my lived experience — and now I offer it as a torch in your hand.
I did not meet my Wise Woman through books or theory.
I met her in loss, in the void, in the release of my addictions, in the shift in seasons, in healing, in the caves of the unknown, and the intimate rooms of my own shadow.
She is the force that stood steadily by me in the years of shedding and release, that paved the way for unimaginable love, intimacy and light.
Lumina the culmination of everything I learned leading myelf and others,
remembered, and returned to —
an initiation into inner illlumination I now pass to the women who are ready.
She was a part of my deep remembering of my light.
The experience
the scaffolding that holds the ineffable.
The bones that give shape to the mystery.
This retreat is crafted as a living temple for your Wise Woman awakening, blending ritual, embodiment, and sacred sisterhood.This retreat is crafted as a living temple the integration of shadow and light; your Maiden, Queen, Wise Woman awakening, blending ritual, embodiment, and sacred sisterhood.
Everything is equal parts sacred and silly, and I see myself showing up to all aspects of my life with a new kind of reverence and levity.
~Katie
PERFORMER. COACH. EMBODIMENT TEACHER.
Expansion & Emotional Alchemy
You will expand to hold and transmute a new edge of the sensations your Good Girl learned to avoid,
no matter how long you have been doing the inner work.
Rage, grief, desire, fear — metabolized into clarity, presence, and power.
This is the foundation that makes true freedom possible.
And you will feel your soul expanding and reaching through your body.
Archetypal Invocation: Death Maiden , Queen & Wise Woman
We begin with unmasking your Good Girl, and invoking the Wise Woman — the fully expressed, embodied, sovereign force who leads you home.
With the support of The Death Maiden archetype and your inner Queen, your inner-elder will lead you back to your infinite self and heart knowing.
These archetypes do not stay conceptual.
They take up residence in your body.
Embodied Movement Journeys
Guided movement experiences that melt your armor and loosen what has been coiled for decades.
Movement that is not choreography, but instinct.
Not performance, but revelation.
Your body will remember its own language.
Sacred Sisterhood as Mirror & Midwife
This is ritual-grade witnessing — the kind that softens shame and expands identity.
You will be seen on a level most women never experience.
You will see others in ways that awaken what you didn’t know you had.
Nature Immersion & Land Ceremony
We work in collaboration with the local land, elements and practitioners who honor the un-ceded territory of the Abineke people in Calais, Vermont.
This grounds your transformation in roots much older than your current life.
Chef-Prepared, Organic &Ayurvedic Nourishment
Organic, locally-grown meals that nourish and support your system and energy, prepared by a renowned Ayurvedic chef, and aligned with the energetic support our bodies will need.
Retreat Details
Nestled in the mountains of Vermont.
Fly into Burlington Airport (an hour long group taxi will bring you to Holden House)
6 Days / 5 Nights at the private, 1890's farmstead, Holden House in Calais, Vermont.
Unique immersive experiences with gifted local healers, such as sound healing, nature therapy, and death awareness.
*Airfare or travel to Holden House is not included*
Investment covers your stay, private room accommodation, daily sessions, three nourishing meals daily, ceremony on the land, and group travel from the airport, and any potential excursions we take together (airfare not included)
Includes a private room (twins available & Queens)
Twin rooms have a shared bathroom
Queens have their own private bathroom
Queen rooms with private bathroom will be given first come, first serve at no additional cost. Those who enroll first will receive these rooms.
Not Included: Flights
Prerequisites for consideration:
✔︎ Completion of Ishtara: Body Alchemy & Body Trinity
✔︎ Or previous in-depth work with Beth and/or a willingness to take Body Alchemy before we begin (a 6 week meditative movement group experience) to prepare for the experience.
(Application required for confirmation.)
Also includeD:
Rituals That Frame Your Initiation
Your Journey Begins Before You Arrive… and Continues Long After You Return
Transformation this deep does not begin on Day 1 of the retreat.
It begins the moment you say yes.
To support you in crossing the threshold with clarity, devotion, and a steady nervous system, Born Wild includes two powerful ceremonial
circles that bookend the retreat experience:
#1 The Archetypal Seed Planting Circle (Zoom)
Two Weeks Before Arrival
This is where you enter the field.
A live, group immersive Zoom circle designed to:
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attune your body to the frequency of the Wise Woman.
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connect energetically and emotionally with the other women attending the retreat
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clear the static of who you’ve been performing as
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identify the deeper pattern you are shedding
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name the true North Star your Wise Woman and Lumina is calling you toward
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begin the emotional, spiritual, and energetic untethering that prepares you for the depth of the work
This is not “onboarding.”
This is a threshold ceremony—a deliberate stepping out of your old life so you can enter the retreat already cracked open, already listening, already connected to the archetype who will initiate you in Costa Rica.
#2 The Wise Woman Integration Circle Intensive (Zoom)
Two Weeks After Returning Home
The Wild Woman does not leave when you leave the jungle.
In this closing ritual, we gather again to:
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root the transformation into your daily life
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metabolize what cracked open during the retreat
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translate your insights into embodiment
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anchor the new identity emerging through your body
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prevent spiritual whiplash, emotional collapse, or old patterns snapping back into place
This circle ensures that your initiation becomes a lived reality, not a beautiful and powerful memory.
Integration is where you become the woman the retreat revealed.
EARLY ENROLLMENT BONUS
There are moments in a woman’s life when the veil thins —
when something ancient inside her whispers, “Now.”
This bonus is crafted for the woman who hears that whisper and answers it, especially since enrollment is very limited. This will be an intimate circle of women.
When you enroll by December 6th (when Mars stations direct in Leo), you’ll receive an exclusive, high-touch initiation designed to begin the ceremony long before your feet touch the soil in Vermont.
Bonus #1: Early Enrollment Savings
$500 off enrollment in Lumina (or $1,000 total if you book Lumina AND the Born Wild Retreat together during early enrollment).
Bonus #2: Sacred Anointing Oil & Oracle Card Pull for 2026
(over $200 value)
As an early-enrollment gift, you’ll receive your own Wise Woman Sacred Anointing Oil—blended by my mentors and sisters in the work, chosen intuitively for you to begin anointing your body and awakening the essence that will be guiding you into this initiation at Lumina.
Alongside it, I’ll drop into ceremony and send you a personal Oracle pull for 2026 for you to walk with, the shedding that’s already underway, and the truth rising in you now.
These are not “bonuses”; they are the first threads of your rite of passage—your body’s way of knowing the journey has already begun.
When you arrive in Vermont, you will not be arriving as the same woman who clicked “register,” but as someone who has already stepped onto the path.
Why These Bonuses Matter
The Wise Woman retreat is not a casual getaway.
It is a living archetypal force that begins working the moment you say yes, even if it is many months before you arrive.
This is not about getting “extra things.”
This is about priming the portal, so that by the time you arrive:
You’re already in a transformation that is underway.
Your body knows what you’re coming for.
Your Wise Woman is awake.
And the land of Holden House can get to work on you immediately.
Investment & Enrollment
Investment: $4,888 covers your stay, private room, accommodations, sessions, three nourishing meals daily, and group travel from the airport, and any potential excursions or workshops we take together (airfare not included)
$4.388 during early enrollment (by Dec 6th, 2025)
To Book Your Spot: $1,500 deposit secures your spot (non-refundable)
The remaining balance automatically charges on
June 15, 2026
Cancellation & Travel Insurance:
Once you commit, your deposit/payment is a sacred commitment and is therefore non-refundable. Because life can be unpredictable—whether due to illness, family needs, natural events, or unexpected changes—I highly encourage each woman to purchase travel/trip insurance to protect her investment.
Many companies now offer “Cancel Anytime” (CATI) coverage, which allows you to cancel for any reason and receive up to 75% of your trip cost refunded, as long as it’s purchased within 3 weeks of your initial deposit. The investment for this peace of mind is usually only a few hundred dollars, and I can connect you with my trusted source for CFAR insurance if you’d like guidance.
The Wise Woman beckons..
There is a moment in every woman’s life when the Wise Woman hums, winks or sends the call into the dark.
She arrives like a memory.
A pulse.
A whisper.
A pull into the depths of your body.
A heart invitation you can't shake.
A knowing that says:
It’s time to go deeper, love.
If you feel that tremor now, the pull now, do not ignore it.
Because the sooner you answer her call, the sooner she can start bringing the magic into your life and preparing you for the work you will be doing together next year.
For you to go higher than ever before in who you are becoming, what you are here to do, and what you are here to create.
This is the portal.
This is the passageway.
This is the threshold you have been walking toward for years.
Your Wise Woman is ready.
The land is ready.
The circle is forming.
